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Baking

2009-03-01T17:22:11Z

This weekend I got conned into making a dessert for Sunday lunch, as we bought cheap blueberries and there happened to be a tasty looking recipe for a blueberry tart in the weekend paper. I naturally got conned into baking said tart and below is the result.

Kinda shiny ne?
I plan on making sushi for lunch tomorrow later this evening and hopefully that shall be healthy enough for my new attempt at healthy living. It might be slightly futile as the tart I baked is rather heavy on the sugar butter etc. I hope I have enough eggs for the sushi omlette, it might be disasterous If I do not.

I hope eating the tart wont fattten me up because I need to fit still into my brand new jeans.

I tried eating a cherry jelly today, it was a little random in flavour and not as good as the usual raspberry jelly i usually snack on. Cutting down on dairy this week as well, farewell yoghurt and cheese, I'll miss the cheese on toast lunches.

Design Coursework makes me want to cry.

2009-02-06T17:15:23Z

Having people rant at me about handing in working drawings makes me want to scream, cry and rant back at the same time.
I will indeed catch up my design coursework and finish writing my research etcetc as well as dyeing my samples and annotating everything I can to hell and back but it DOES NOT HELP when 4 different people have different opinions on completeting MY project. (I am not even one of those people and it frustrates me to hell) I would be more up to date already but Snow Days seem to get in the way of consulting people I need to talk to about my design work, not to mention FINISH LAST YEARS WORK >.< I just wanna cry.

Now I am sitting here feeling sick again and absolutely FREEZING cold and trying to warm myself up before I actually do some of the work I need to do. *scowls* I'm hungry too. Next week will be completely focused on design work because some arkwright woman is coming to chat to Belinda and I as well as the fact that I have to compete in SATRO heading the yr 13 team AGAIN ^^ Good thing Amy will be there to keep me and my lightbulb circuit occupied :)

I also need to prepare for entertaining people on sunday, the usual, find my japanese tea cups, dust all the tables in my room, clean the floor and the floor blanket, rearrange cushions, that kinda thing ^^ It might warm me up though ^^

Not to mention I sill feel sick.

Facebook is Dangerous

2009-01-24T19:42:52Z

Recently because I havent wanted to watch any dramas whatsoever (apart from Boys over Flowers - due to the fact that I want to jump Minho) I have taken to actually reading bits and peices and looking at peoples profiles on Facebook.....
This form of procrastination is far far far more dangerous than others, for example, I ended up kinda stalking my first crush's profile for a bit. (I SWEAR IM NOT A STALKER I WAS JUST BORED) The issue with this is that I ended up looking at far too many pictures of him and his way way pretty blond girlfriend.... and ended up feeling more shit than when I began and at the same time strangely compelled to look at more pictures and read more stuff *shudders* - glutton for punishment or what??

In such matters as these I realise how shy around people I usually am/can be. When Im with a group of people one of them whom im comfortable with completely, I tend to be more energetic and generally quite silly, but with new people or people I dont know that well, or even people ive known for years but still not that well, I turn into a mask of confidence with not much really to say. (Though on some days I just act energetic and silly whoever I am with.

After stalking various peoples profiles including said first crush etcetc revelations about peoples lives and stuff honestly made me feel weak/felt like a physical blow. I shall try not to use this form of procrastination in the future as it makes me feel far worse than when I began.

Skype might just be the best thing....

2009-01-23T18:00:16Z

I took the day off school today again, after another nosebleed that started coming through my eye, unfortunately no photos of this one either. I spent the day reading fantasy novels and occasionally chatting online. I was a little depressed from feeling rather woozy from the eye incident and spent a lot of time kind of moping.
Later in the early afternoon after spending an excruciating 1/2 hour trying to find a substitute for msn or skype that works both on my mac and on Ajusshi's laptop and failing, she managed to get skype working.Yay for Skype, Ajusshi and I sat and laughed at each other over skype for about 5 minutes before being able to speak, maybe it was nervousness or just stupidity - We're like that a lot.
An hour and bit of a conversation later and it felt a little like she had never left :)
I'm glad I got a chance to sleep properly recently and hopefully I shall as of next week have completely immaculate attendance at sixthform and finish my final two exams with a flourish. I feel that revising for Chemistry will be fairly easy going, and now that I understand M2 a little more it may be possible to revise sufficiently for M2 on Thursday as well. All in all I am feeling somewhat more optimistic about the coming few weeks, (not to mention that pancake day is only around the corner xDxD)

Feeling somehow empty.

2009-01-21T13:11:51Z

2 Exams left before I am free to study more >.< I cant just stop studying ;_; The library will still be where I am to be found on weekends and some weekday evening. Work will still provide my earnings every week, tutoring twice a week. I do however need to answer Open day invitations, start driving lessons, get my passport renewed and do various other bits and peices like decide what the hell to do for my 18th Bday when some important people arent gonna be there.

Matt came up with an uber creepy line the other night, but it looks like despite his ability to be creepy we're gonna be friends for a very very very long time *raises eyebrow*. I also got asked out yesterday, I dont like being asked out because in general I don't date. Im not sure why I dont date its more that I dont think I could, and most of the time Im most certainly not attracted to whoever has deigned to ask me out. Its also probably because I am confused about a lot of things a lot of the time, so having other people emotions or whatever riding on top of whatever I need to figure out about myself makes it all that much more difficult to figure out in the first place.

I think I can say that my true friends are one of the most important existances in my life and that my true friendships are of a very deep love and emotional investment. I miss ajusshi so much now that it just feels like a section of my personality is missing all the time, it feels like I can breathe just not deeply enough. Its very much like not being able to be the myself I am when I'm with her. This is the same as when I cant see some of my other important people, the version of myself with them disappears and makes me feel incomplete.

Or maybe just maybe I'm talking rubbish because I have a headache and am exhausted from revsion marathons and exams. At the same time, i feel like a lot of it isnt rubbish its just how I feel.

EPIC PHALE.... and and AWESOME Day :)

2009-01-18T23:12:46Z

Getting impromtu invites to aquaintances birthday celebrations are always a very nice way to end one's weekend. Those bday celebrations spent along with x_cantabile and her friends was an awesome day.
Traipsing around London with cold feet and not much to do apart from walk and visit places we've all been many many times before, playing air hockey in arcades and admiring those crazy souls that have mastered insane dance mat routines was a very enjoyable way to spend a day indeed.
Purikura being the highlight of the day along with fangirling insanely throughout the evening. Such times were so much fun today that im sure they will be repeated sometime.... :)

Ajusshi was in my dream last night, she skipped school to come and see me and had a bike. We greeted each other and I got a hug in the dream. Walking along together at the same pace was a comforting dream because I miss her presence, the music we were listening to via an mp3 player soon became the music on my alarm and woke me up unfortunately - Always too soon.

NB// BIG BAG on Infinty Challenge was perhaps the most ammusing piece of TV I have seen in a very very very long time, Jae Suk makes such and awesome TOP :) Also Lee Min Ho in Boys Over Flowers is so hot with straight hair that I want to jump him right now xD

Lists and Organising

2008-10-11T22:41:47Z

My organisational skills are obviously not all that wonderful or sucessful as this weekend has been spent wallowing in painkillers and list writing. My lists are tremendously detailed I just now need to learn to stick to doing the stuff on them. I shall work hard tomorrow :) I promise. I shall also endeavour as it says on my list to write another fanfiction and actually publish it on lj. It may or may not happen. I also need to sort my Lj layout out, but i stlll havent gotten round to it.
Other things on my To do list include learning the entire dance to 날봐 귀순 as my korean friend urges me to on a regular basis. Personally I think this is just so that she can laugh at me :) My list also has sections to do with saving money for Korea next year and booking my plane tickets next week. *gets uber excited* I do also have to finish my Uni application ASAP and do various other bits and peices.
Daily I have to write in my lj, exercise, drink water, revise and sleep as well as singing practise and sixthform or whatever. Tomorrow I shall be off out for a little while for milkshake with a very good friend of mine xD and I also will be spending a portion of next weekend with Jon eating jajangmyun due to the fact that we promised to go for noodles 3 months ago and have failed to live up to our promises. Im sure though that noone wants to read all this boring stuff and that I should just write pointless stuff about how I spent friday afternoon making room on my wall for new big bang posters that I dont even have yet(christmas present from Danny) and moving my posters of Se7en and Jun Ki about to make all my posters at right angles with each other.

Wine and Stuffs

2008-09-13T22:20:00Z

Did some proper fangirling today, for the first time in a LONG time xD xD Yay for that! However this evening Matt and I spent our time at the barbecue eating food and drinking wine, and then proceeding to laugh at Kpop MVs whilst trying to remain sober.

It was partially sucessful :)

Just now i managed to nearly break my nose on my laptop and I feel like crying with pain and laughter but that will make my nose hurt even more.

FanFics and wanting to shout BIG BANG at random people

2008-09-06T16:34:35Z

Its the weekend YAY! Slight problem with life though, I am thoroughly obsessed with big bang >.< So much so that I want to yell "Big Bang" at people. My other slight issue is that most of my fangirl friends are either japan obsessed or have moved onto other stuffs when I just want to rant at them about Big Bang all the time. I must be the most annoying person on the planet!! However I like big bang, so its all okay.
Big Bang fanfiction is basically one of the best things ever. Its all good, and although I always prefer the NC17 stuff I love most of it. Maybe I shall write my own someday. I also really should be getting on with reviewing dramas but at present all I want to do is sit in bed eating left over korean or chinese food listening to Big Bang on repeat. Am I going insane??

Of Baking and Standing Up

2008-09-04T16:19:16Z

Yesterday was a forray into how much stuff you can cook in 3 Hours. More like, How much you can bake.... I made two apple cakes at the request of my mother who was at work, and I also made an apple pie for my friend to take home with her. Other food cooked included dinner for myself and my friend, and dinner for my parents, an entirely seperate dish >.< I was standing up for over 3 hours, rushing round my kitchen like a slightly headless chicken.
The washing up I have to report, was this insurmountable pile of crockery and baking instruments. Thank God I didnt have to make the kimchi we ate as part of dinner :)
Today I shall hopefully be making an apron. I discovered that I do really need one, because i got covered in flour more times that I could count yesterday, and I'm sick of having to put clothes in the wash just because Ive dusted myself all over with flour.

Poor Circulation and Immaturity

2008-09-02T21:28:59Z

I am lying in bed, freezing cold despite the fact that i am under a massive duvet with slippers on and other stuff too. Im really cold and I cant figure out why. I seem to be permenantly cold even in summer so I'm sure I must have bad circulation or something. My hands and feet are more often than not a borderline blueish hue.
How on earth then did I manage to have a nosebleed that bled constantly for 50 mins and even came out of my eye, if my circulation is that poor?? I havent a clue, the only conclusion that I can come to is that the human body behaves strangely indeed.

Aparently, garlic is good for the circulation, and aspirin and exercise, how ever I dont want to quite admit defeat yet and I most certainly do not want to have garlic breath for the remainder of my life. What a turn off!

How is it that guys who are only one year younger than I are so ridiculously immature that they think it appropriate to ask me out using MSN out of all communication devices? Is he a 13 yr old? He definitely behaves like it. Needless to say the answer I gave him was negative. Even my ex had one hell of a lot more class considering he asked me out by letter ! Cute but still, T_T.

SS501 is my current music choice because, even though Big Bang are the most awesome thing ever created, listening to purely Big Bang would probably send me more insane fangirly wise than I already am, and I dont believe that to be the best of Ideas really.

Wardrobe Malfunctions

2008-09-01T12:51:07Z

At 10pm at night, I decided that my wardrobe had thoroughly malfunctioned. Not only was it a mess, half of the clothes werent even inside it. Going on a quest to rectify this problem i found myself 20 minutes later sitting on the floor surrounded by piles of clothes:
Clothes that can be worn regularly (Big Bang Style), Hats, belts and accessories as well.
Tops I wont wear regularly.
Trousers I wont wear regularly.
Stuff that needs to be hung up.
Undergarments and Pajamas.

Even this morning I discover that my quest has been slightly in vain as there is a massive pile of laundry to be washed and will mess up my perfect system once washed ;_;

My floor is still also covered in rice, from the time that i emptied an entire box on the floor by accident. All in All my room is still a tip, and todays mission will be to rectify this.

AWESOME DREAM

2008-08-30T01:24:03Z

I dont dream all that much, but when I do its usually uberly crazy and full of gazillions of details. This morning i woke up after the best dream ever...

Big Bang were coming to the UK, and my friend was going to be part of the English half of their entourage. I begged her if it was at all possible to be introduced to them at any cost, and that I would buy her a huge gift in return...
Later that day my doorbell rang, I had been mooching around feeling sad about the fact that my friend had said it was impossible to meet Big Bang and went to answer the door feeling dejected. Lo and behold standing on my doorstep was the 5 members of Big Bang with a MPV parked on my street and entourage members with clip boards lurking on their heels. I nearly fainted at the sight of them when my friend appeared and explained that the schedule of the boys had been cancelled due to some unknown reason and that they had asked her to introduce her to her friends and have an afternoon chilling out because their trip to the UK was really for vacation purposes. I nearly fainted again when it actually sunk in that GD, TOP, Ri YB and Dae were actually standing on my doorstep.
I invited them in of course and the afternoon passed away with us lying about in the living room on the sofas with tea and beer and good talks. TOP GD and I were talking about music, games, drawing and the internet and random stuff. The other 3 seemed to be having fun talking about loads of different things that I didnt really get to hear much of. I cooked everyone dinner of rice and various things I had lying in my fridge including kimchi, fish, eggs that kind of thing. Without realising it the day had disappeared like smoke vanishing into the breeze. It was 10pm already and we were still just lazing about talking and ignoring the television that was blaring in our faces. When I left to go use the toilet members of the entourage cornered me and requested me to let the guys sleep in my spare rooms overnight, as my parents were out of town, and they didnt want to disturb the guys as it was their vacation. I wasnt about to turn the guys out on the street and to be honest i had a massive bout of WTF? coming on.
The night passed uneventfully with GD and Top ending up sleeping on the futon in my room and Dae and YB taking the massive guest bedroom next door and SeungRi took the room on the third floor. SeungRi it had to be said spent the longest time out of all of the guys in the bathroom the next morning, GD taking not much less time due to his diva nature. The next morning Big Bang were leaving in a hurry and everyone grabbed toast on their way to the MPV. The guys and my friend were all waiting to say goodbye and thankyou to me outside my house in the morning sunlight. I rushed over and after saying my goodbyes to most of the guys, the creepy entourage people and the majority of the boys piled into the MPV and other cars that had arrived with them. Soon there was only TOP and GD and my friend left standing infront of me. I noticed that TOP was wearing a different Leather Jacket to the one he had arrived in and that his other one had been left inside, so I asked him to return with me to fetch it.
The four of us ventured inside out of the blinding morning sun and as we did so I asked TOP for his mobile. I smiled at him in the doorway and said "not for anything dodgy, just to give you my number incase you guys feel like going somplace with my friends and I." He smiled at the statement and handed me his phone, GD followed suit. I started trying to put my number into TOP's phone and failed spectacularly and had to get him to show me how to do it (he had a really awkward phone). We were standing in the kitchen at this point all of us because that was where TOPs jacket had last been seen. I went to grab the jacket off the worksurface and as I did so I questioned GD as to whether I was likely to see them again later in the week or not. Happily I got a positive reply. Holding TOP's second leather jacket I turned to them and said "I'm going to Korea next year, is it possible I will see you guys again?" Obviously fairly shocked GD said to me, "youre coming to Korea next year, really? When?" "In July I think," I replied smiling. "Are you really coming out to Korea? Where are you staying?" Was TOP's reply. I smiled some more and then retorted "With my friend in Ilsan, at her place for 6 weeks." GD and TOP who had been muttering to each other whilst I replied, turned towards me. TOP spoke slightly sarcastically, " Are you sure it wont be too small a place to stay for you?" I looked at him incredulously, "I can live anywhere I'm sure it will be fine, unless youre offering to put me up instead?" I retorded whilst splashing him with water from the tap in jest. GD was the first one to break into a grin, and TOP followed suit, "Maybe" was the reply i recieved and the three of us stood there laughing.
All this had taken place in such a short time, it takes much more space and time to narrate it all and for someone to read it. I thrust the jacket into TOP's hands and questioned "Hadn't you be better leaving now, don't you have places to be?" I then ushered them towards the front door, ushering them back out to the MPV and their slightly creepy entourage.
Just as they were leaving the threshold, TOP thrust his jacket back into my hands, "Keep this one, I already have the one I am wearing" he muttered. Then the whole troop left me standing on my doorstep.

*end of dream content*

Why can't I just stay asleep forever?

List of Dramas Watched

2008-03-25T21:39:10Z

I thought, that anyone who might consider reading my Lj, might want to know what kinds of dramas I might post reviews on. Well here it is ^_^, The rough list of dramas I have watched so far.

When I say I have watched them, yes that means from beginning to end, all the way through. A little crazy it may seem but take a peek:
Japanese Dramas Watched

1.Hana Yori Dango I
2.Hana Yori Dango II
3.Nobuta Wo Produce
4.Gokusen
5.Gokusen II
6.Stand Up!
7.Tokyo Friends
8.Sapuri
9.Kimi Wa Petto
10.Kurosagi
11.DragonZukra
12.Tokyo Wankei
13.Nodame Cantabile
14.Princess Princess D
15.Tatta Hitotsu no Koi
16.Ace Wo Nerae
17.Attack No 1
18.Shimokita Sundays
19.Pride
20.Proposal Daisakusen
21.Star No Koi
22.Sore wa Totsuzen, Arashi No You Ni
23.Bambino!
24.Ganbatte Ikkimashoi
25.Dance Drill
26.Attention Please
27.Ikebukuro West Gate Park
28.Tokyo Tower 2007
29.Yaoh
30.Kou Kou Kyoushi 2003
31.Long Love Letter
32.Tsubasa no Oreta Tenshitachi I
33.Tsubasa no Oreta Tenshitachi II
34.Hanayome to Papa
35.Haruka 17
36.Boku Dake no Madonna
37.Haken No Hinkaku
38.Engine
39.Byakkotai
40.Hanazakari No Kimitachi e
41.Long Vacation
42.Oishii Proposal
43.Seito Shokun
44.Orange Days
45.Tokkyu Tanaka 3 Go
46.Akihabara@deep
47.Anego
48.Lunch Queen
49.Hotaru no Hikari
50.Tantei Gakuen q
51.LIFE
52.Gachibaka!
53.Great Teacher Onizuka
54.Densha Otoko
55.One Pound Gospel
56.Honey and Clover
57.1 Litre no Namida
58.Aijou Ippon
59.Remote
60.Galileo
61.Himitsu no Hanazono
62.Iryu Team Medical Dragon
63.Iryu Team Medical Dragon II
64.Liar Game
65.Mukudono 2003
66.Love Generation
67.My Boss My Hero
68.Papa to Musume no Nanokakan
69.Yamada Taro Monogatari
70.Yukan Club
71.Taiyo no Uta
72.Majo no Jouken
73.One Million Stars Falling from the Sky
74.Golden Bowl
75.Shounen wa Tori ni Natta
76.Kabachitare
77.Bimbo Danshi
78.Satomi Hakkenden
79.Mukudono
80.Shikaotoko Aoniyoshi
81.Security Police
82.Beauty or Beast
83.Jotei
84.Sekai no Chuushin de, Ai wo Sakebu
85.Slow Dance
86.Trick
87.Unfair
88.Shiawase ni Naritai
89.Gift
90.14 sai no Haha
91.Edison no Haha
92.Aijou Ippon
93.Hanayome wa Yakudoshi
94.Itoshi Kimi E
95.Last Friends
96.Zettai Kareshi
97.Atsu Hime
98.Osen
99.Gokusen III
100.Rookies
101.Battery
102.Strawberry on the Shortcake
103.Maou
104.Change
105.Hataraki Man
106.Code Blue
107.Puzzle

Korean Dramas Watched:

1.Goong
2.Goong S
3.One Percent of Anything
4.Delightful Girl Choon-Hyang
5.Exhibition of Fireworks
6.Only You
7.Witch Yoo-Hee
8.Star In my Heart
9.Successful Story of a Bright Girl
10.Full House
11.Coffee Prince
12.9end 2outs
13.Love Story In Harvard
14.Snow White
15.My Girl
16.InSoon Is Pretty
17.Time between Dog and Wolf
18.The Devil
19.Lovers
20.Hong Gil Dong
21.Iljimae
22.Over The Rainbow
23.I am Sam

Chinese/Taiwanese Dramas Watched:

1.Hanazakari no Kimitachi e
2.Meteor Garden I
3.Meteor Garden II
4.Devil Beside You
5.Peach Girl
6.It Started with a Kiss
7.Love Contract
8.Tokyo Juliet
9.Mars
10.Why Why Love
11.Angel Lover
12.Smiling Pasta
13.Romantic Princess
14.Bull Fighting
15.Brown Sugar Macchiato
16.Corner With Love
17.KOOne
18.My Lucky Star
19.Magicians of Love
20.Prince who turned into a Frog
21.Silence
22.Rolling Love

Jmovies Watched:

1.Swing Girls
2.Tokyo Zombie
3.Azumi
4.Azumi II
5.Tokyo Tower

Kmovies Watched:

1.My Sassy Girl
2.100 days with Mr Arrogant
3.A Millionaire's first love
4.Project Make Over
5.Art of Fighting
6.Seducing Mr Perfec
7.Dasepo Girls
8.First Snow Love
9.The King and the Clown
10.The Art of Seduction
11.Love Exposure
12.Yellow Flower
13.Fly Daddy Fly
14.He was cool
15.200 pounds of beauty
16.Face
17.See you after school
18.My Tutor Friend
19.For Horowitz
20.My Tutor Friend II
This is only a rough list, so it might not include some series I've forgotten about in the process :) I might use this list as an index in the future, not sure if will ever get that far though.

[1] Hana Yori Dango ~ Review

2008-03-24T13:06:22Z

So I started to actually write reviews *AKIRA SHOCK*, Maybe my Lj will actually move places. All my Reviews will be public, though some of my personal entries will be friends only xD Using one Lj for two things.. dundundun.

To kick start my reviews of Jdramas ~

Review ~ Hana Yori Dango - Boys Before Flowers

If you haven’t seen this Jdrama where have you been for the last 3 years? Not only is it a staple of the style recent years have seen jdramas shot in, it is one of the most well known animes of the early 1990’s. Based on a Shoujo manga by Kamio Yoko, it portrays the difficulties of a poor student in an elitist school in a Japan with great social disparity.

Enough with the smart talk, the summary is written below ^_^

One of the first Jdramas I ever watched, I absolutely adore this 9 episode season xD

Reasons to watch:
Matsumoto Jun with a perm..... (not a particularly good reason but he looks hot anyways)
Oguri Shun as the “First Love” Interest, nearly everyone falls in love with him here :)
Matsuda Shotathe unexpectedly hot member of the F4 who looks very swish in a kimono.
Inoue Mao, pretty, cute, gets to punch Matsujun, has awesome chemistry with the male lead.
Many other supporting actors whom are awesome at their job, especially Kato Takako, as the slightly eccentric dango shop keeper with far too many previous lovers!

<3 Truly a feel good drama, even with its slightly predictable plot, and Domyoji’s slightly psychotic mother. (Yes I do keep a list of drama psychos because there are many crazy characters littering the Asian drama world) The quality of shooting, editing, props and gorgeous dresses among other things is awesome, all in all 9 episodes of rollercoasters and fun. Something for everyone to like.

Summary

“Makino Tsukushi is the only poor student at Eitoku Gakuen, the school of the ridiculously rich and privileged that is ruled by Flower 4 or F4, a group of four boys who come from extremely powerful families: Domyoji Tsukasa, the leader and heir of the Domyoji World Finance Group; Hanazawa Rui, the introverted son of a large company; Nishikado Sojiro, a player who is the heir of a tea ceremony school; and Mimasaka Akira, a madam killer with ties to the underground. If a student gets on the F4’s bad side, he/she gets a red notice and is bullied and driven out of school.

Makino hopes to pass her days quietly-- without drawing any attention to herself-- but one day, she stands up to Domyoji in defense of her friend. The next day, Makino gets the dreaded red notice. Even though she is harassed, Makino decides to keep going to school because she is a “tough weed”. She declares war right back on the F4. Her resolve gets the attention of her crush Hanazawa Rui and oddly enough, rouses romantic feelings in her worst enemy, Domyoji Tsukasa.

The series is based on the Japanese shoujo manga "Hana Yori Dango" (Boys Before Flowers) by Kamio Yoko.” ~Credit Dramawiki

Where to go with my LJ....

2007-12-26T21:26:20Z

I decided that as I am pretty much fairly useless at writing fanfics, making icons and generally being up to date with everything ever on my LJ that perhaps I should make my LJ into a review site.. mainly for J/K/T dramas, and also for stuff like Jpop Albums etcetc. This is because my knowledge base on all these things are pretty good, I thought it would be awesome to collect all of this stuff in one place, to advise people what is good to watch :)

Back to LJ.....

2007-10-01T22:34:05Z

Its been a year an a bit since i last posted, and in that time I've pretty much completely changed my outlook on life. Not only has the fangirl part of my personality all but taken over, but I'm a lot more chillaxed and with it. I spent far far too much time watching Jdramas and swooning over performances of Love xxxx and Daite Senorita, but I'm also trying very hard to keep on top of my workload at school. If I seem to be on the computer or on too many forums at once shout at me to get off please. Arigatou in advance :) Cya around. bobo~

hmm

2006-08-02T19:01:15Z

So the summer holidays are here.... and what have i done?
SLEEPING and lots of it, and some amazing meet ups with mates :)
I <3 the peeps frm croydon when they came down here ectect. And the peeps frm walton are awesome too, apart frm when garth decides tht he needs to piss off and leave us :(. and Sleepovers with people named gemma have been good :).

Croydon is awesome i love the place to peices.... apart from the chavs that inhabit it :(
Buschy Park is also awesome, it has a special place in my heart for being chucked around and doing silly dancing.

Still feeling completely akgns j gsdgkshdg; and drained i guess its cause of sleepovers and lack of sleep. ahh well. off to walton tomoz woo!

Another Down Update

2006-05-19T16:23:39Z

So yeah, and ive been cruising along @ kinda content level with great conversations with mates online and thinking im coping with the whole exam thingy when really ive been kidding myself and not even realising it. I really think im gonna fail my exams, and ive only got 3 days left. Im soooo tired its unreal. I feel worthless, and ive realised that everything i do annoys people. Even the people who put up with me have to take a break from me at some point.. noone can handle me being me. And i hate having to put on being someone else for people so that wont happen. Im depressed cause i know that the guy i fancy wont evr like me back, and so in the course of things have to remain single again. The only guys i can get are desperate, pervy, obsessive or all three!!!! God/ess send me something better please!!!
Im depressed cause im cold and shivering and im too tired to get warm. Im depressed cause over the weekend i have to do 8 hours of revision a day and work work work as much as humanly possible to make up all the work ive never done, and whilst im doing this, all my friends are out having fun and doing stuff i wanna do. I guess its only one weekend, but someone give me something to be happy about for once!

HI

2006-05-16T19:07:52Z

todays update isnt when im depressed :O

am i really?

2006-05-14T20:39:16Z

am i really over him, the question plagues me whenever im bored lonley or come across something tht reminds me of him....
but thankfully the way of combatting this kinda depressedness is close @ hand a phonecall to g and a thourough course of "hes an idiot u never talked" ensues.. it works wonders everytime. where would be right now if it wasnt for friend counillors namely g and colin... thankyou.

BORING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-04-08T10:07:05Z

DAN is the most boring person on the planet!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SOOOOOOO boring and ANNOYING. Pervy emails and txts, and hes crap at making out!
i hope u enjoyed my bitching session it was enjoyable!

after being hyper

2006-03-01T22:01:24Z

Ohh wow its march!
Went to this problem solving competition today it was sooooooo jokes. met these random fairly hot guys from sutton grammar and it was hilarious.
they peirced a hole in their dink and ended up trying to close it up by wrapping selotape round the bottle.
john and i attacked each other with metal rulers.
the only wierd thing was that all of the sutton grammar guys had the same nose it was really odd.
anyway so i kinda fancied a couple of them but i nevr have the confidence to get their email addresses or numbers.I suck. And my mates from walton cant come down this weekend to see my radical change....
but hey they wouldnt care.

who cares any more?

2006-01-17T20:24:45Z

Well just updating whilst pretending to do german work.... nothing unusal then. Got violin and singing tomorrow so that shall be good.
What to do about my love life... I DONT NEED ONE well id like one but noone desperate. someone who likes me for me.. as if that will happen. Still not having many friends.. i rely on the 6th formers too much and theyll be leaving nxt year :( apart from the yr 12s then yr13s who i will have to spend 3 hours a week with as usual.
Back to the love life.. i got sidetracked there... yes well there are a few people i fancy but ill just have to dream for now cause its very very unlikely. And by my track record no guy will want me cause of the way i treat them... SOD IT *SHUT UP ROBYN* stop putting yourself down and beating yourself up. But i do like to sink into self pity.
I could write pages and pages on my feelings but ill leave you with this thought.. If you are "tortured" if everything about you was that one word and everyone in the world was one word surely you'd rather be "loved"

i dont know

2006-01-13T18:51:28Z

I swear i failed my AS mock today... who cares... evidently noone but me.
New development, a few new people know who i fancy :O but i can emotional black mail them!!
Im spending most of my time at this point in my life, pissed of or depressed. My friends never invite me out, i may as well not even exist. Im not enough a part of any of my friendship groups to be invited anywhere!